Beautiful – MercyMe (click link to view video)

I absolutely love this song.  The first verse describes how I felt for much of my life…

Days will come when you don’t have the strength
When all you hear is you’re not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They’d see too much

Wondering if I ever could be loved… yes, that was me.  I often doubted God’s love, my family’s love, and even the love that so many friends showed me.  Little did I know, not only was I loved by all of the above, but God put someone in my life who loves me like I never thought I could be loved…my husband Josh.  Not only does he love me, but he tells me every day that I am beautiful.

In a previous blog, I wrote about a night I was not feeling beautiful at all.  On the way home from a Dallas Stars game, after circumstances left me feeling sad and insecure, I played this song.  The second verse stood out to me…

Praying that you have the heart to fight
‘Cause you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you’ve held inside so long
They are nothing in the shadow of the cross

It reminded me of the healing God had been doing in my life and that Satan wanted to destroy the work of God by filling me with lies that I was ugly and worthless.  So I chose to fight.  I still choose to fight every day.  There are days I don’t have the strength.  There are days I don’t feel beautiful no matter how many times my husband tells me I am.

On those days, I remind myself of this song and of the great love God (and my husband) has for me.

You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You’re beautiful


PSALM 139:13-18

For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.